Monday, January 3, 2011

every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end....

these lyrics from the song closing time by semisonic have resonated with me lately.....

2011 will be a year of changes for me.  
two weeks ago i lost my job.  

one that i have had for 10 years.
it was a shock considering that it happened just a week before christmas, however, i hadn't been happy for a while and talked often with my husband about finding something else, 
maybe changing careers, as the healthcare field had been taking it's toll on me in the past couple of years.  i felt stressed and overworked and my sense of compassion for other people was becoming non-existent.  
as the saying goes "when one door closes, a window opens"  
and i am going to live by that quote. 
this new direction will allow me to focus on my photography and perhaps 
start a little business painting and 
repurposing discarded and thrifted furniture, 
something that i have found really satisfies me. 

while i have an enormous amount of guilt about less money in an already stretched budget, i have a wonderful sense of calm poking through all of the guilt because 
and this...

is what makes me happy right now and gives me a sense of accomplishment and pride in my house, something i let fall to the wayside lately because of all of the stress and overtime hours spent at work. 

i am fortunate to have the full support of my family and friends, although i think austen is going 
to miss those couple of hours between getting home from school and dad getting home from work when he had the house to himself.  what kid wouldn't.  this new direction in my life will afford me the opportunity to chaperone on school field trips and watch my granddaughters now that shannon is going back to school to get her degree. 

i think that the next couple of months will be defining for me.....
and although my heart races at times when i think too hard about the new direction my life has taken,

i am at peace.


Musings Of A Gem said...

Hi Cindy!

Great post...I really hope your new direction makes you so happy!!!!

I really admire women starting their own businesses...I mean why not?! Working for yourself seems so much more appealingand rewarding than the 'usual' working life.

I know what you mean about you being 'at peace'...sometimes when a door closes it is an utter relief!!!

Good luch with everything & I will be keeping tuned with your new adventure : )

Gemma xxxx

Georgianna said...

Dear Cindy,

Happy New Year!

Thank you for sharing this news with us. I'm proud of the way you've embraced this unexpected change, didn't let it dampen your holidays and are turning it to your advantage.

I can fully understand you wanting to regroup and put order into your life, freshen things up and take a new look out into the universe.

Wishing you the very best in your new ventures and a year of prosperity, health and joy!


Kim @ Savvy Southern Style said...

What wonderful photos. Sorry about the job loss. I worked in the health field too and endured it for many years and quit ten years ago when my husband was promoted. I was stressed out! I love to refinish furniture, too and didn't realize how much until I started blogging. Thanks so much for the comment on my chest. I do love that piece.

Janean said...

you have a new direction. yay! i find it easier to live in *automatic* and just go with wherever the path take us. now you're even more attentively walking each step of the path.

btw, i'm looking for side-saddle ostrich rides while you've got the time to join me! LOL.

A. Jarrett said...

Dear Cindy,

That is what is most important - to be at peace and embrace what life throws at you.

Love your honesty in this post!

My best to you in this new year!

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